Category Archives: Addiction

Brave Girl

Sometimes we make decisions while we are deep in the trenches…Often those decisions are made out of fear…or the need to isolate and separate ourselves from people…Or simply survival. We can only see that this decision is going to give … Continue reading

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Sitting In The Circle

It’s often the smallest things that stop you in your tracks. The things that you don’t even think about and then you see something or hear something and all of a sudden you’re overcome with a memory…a moment…a season of … Continue reading

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Separation

At this point, the number of years we’ve spent apart outnumber the years we’ve lived under the same roof. Despite that fact, I had never used the word “separated”. Anytime I would fill out forms…for the doctor…rehab…insurance…Job applications…anything…I always use … Continue reading

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Surviving

The first few days your husband starts rehab – it’s like the 5 stages of grief except you don’t get anytime to stay in any of the stages so you don’t get to process the feelings. All you get to … Continue reading

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Concrete Floors

Two and a half years ago…I remember a time where I wasn’t always wondering when the next rug would be pulled out from under me. It was Thanksgiving. My youngest girl and I had gone to Ohio for the week. … Continue reading

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Circles

Sometimes your loss and grief is so tied up in someone else’s choice – your pain is so intertwined with someone else’s story – so much so that when you try to move forward, your steps either make the other … Continue reading

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How to Paint on Ambien

Sometimes you get home late on a Friday after being out of town for work all week. There’s dishes in the sink. Not really sure when the dryer lint trap was last cleaned. Pretty sure the vacuum was used beyond … Continue reading

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Faith

I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, “Move from here to there,” and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you. Matthew 17:20 Mustard … Continue reading

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Fear

Fear. The rock I put down at the marriage conference a brief 6 weeks ago. Only to pick back up a few short weeks later. Not unfounded. Unbearably heavy. June 3rd Day Zero June 4th Day One. Again. He’ll go … Continue reading

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To Count Or Not To Count

90 Days. The early morning text from my husband, followed by a picture of his 90 day chip. I haven’t been counting the days this time. I’ve counted them every time. I always have to start over. If I don’t … Continue reading

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