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When Addiction Wins

Every time someone’s addiction wins I panic. I wonder how it happened. How long had it been “that bad”. How many people really knew how bad the struggle had been over the last few months. How long and how well … Continue reading

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Jesus Wept

I knew I was in trouble when I read the outline in the bulletin at church Sunday…the story of Lazarus…the shortest…most powerful verse in the Bible. John 11:35 Jesus wept. The worship music…the song that left me unable to sing…mouthing … Continue reading

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Pulling Weeds

I just finished pulling weeds…for an hour…okay…for 40 minutes…but I continued to sweat like I was still out there for another 20 minutes so let’s call it good. I don’t pull weeds. Or garden. It’s not my thing. I don’t … Continue reading

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The Other Side of the Bed

Every time I went out of town I would come home to clothes on my side of the bed. Sometimes folded. On hangers waiting to be hung. In a basket waiting to be folded. Laying haphazardly in a pile, fresh … Continue reading

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I Won’t Do That Anymore…

I won’t tear the house apart looking for empty bottles… Or pour out the ones I find that you forgot to hide… I won’t lie for you when people ask where you are… Or tell people who don’t need to … Continue reading

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Maybe…Almost

I think…maybe…almost…I would rather not have known what it would be like. The sobriety. What an awful thought. That I…maybe…almost…would give back knowing the real him. I wonder if it would be easier to not blame myself…if I didn’t know … Continue reading

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When Life Got Messy, I Ran…

Last night at Celebrate Recovery something that was said reminded me of a time I like to forget. A decision I made out of hurt, yes, but looking back more out of spite and anger. It was several years ago … Continue reading

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