“And if there happen to be things you do not understand…“
If you see others delivered from their addiction while your husband is consumed by his…
“…and your pain comes from a place that is entirely out of your hands…”
If you cannot sleep, knowing where he is… If you finally exhale at signs of life and inhale anger in the next breath over choices he is making…
“…it is okay to close your eyes and do nothing more than breathe…”
It is okay to sit in silence…and grieve… and let the tears flow… It is okay to feel anger…and loss… at the same time…
It is even okay to cry over any small thing and tell yourself that you aren’t crying over him…that he doesn’t have that power anymore.
“…knowing you do not have to carry the weight of all these things…”
It is okay to convince yourself you cannot rescue him this time. And it is okay for that to break your heart.
“You are allowed to seek peace, right here…”
You are allowed to remove yourself from the narrative of pain and his self destruction.
“…all by grace, no matter what has changed or what has fallen out of place.”
You
Are
Allowed
To
Save
Yourself
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